SELF LOVE
Sitting down by the window side, drinking a cup of hot coffee, enjoying every sip of it and getting to see the clear sky, cool breeze with a hint of rain, making the leaves dance and birds chirping- sounds like a peaceful moment ,but I wasn't at peace. I had many things going on in my mind.
Though a lot less insecure as I was throughout my life, I still had few doubts from life. Doubts about making new relations with the people. By this time of life, I am left with just a bunch of people that I talk to because I have lost strength and courage to make new relationships from the scratch and build it with trust, love and honesty. The three most important qualities you need to strengthen the foundation as well as to build a new relation.
What do we do when someone messes up with either of these ? We forgive them. And we carry on with that relation as they say ,“Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.” But what do we do when someone repeats the same thing time and again? Well, I am still looking for the answer to that question. I have come to the realisation that don't consume yourself for the happiness of others. They won't reciprocate anyways.
The only love we deserve is the self love. As mentioned by someone, “Sometimes your soulmate is your own self. You have to be the love of your life until you discover that type of love in someone else.” And not just till the time you don't find that someone but even after that.
I have had many such experiences where in I had the habit of putting myself in the last, of getting lost and letting myself get consumed so that any relation (be it friends, colleagues,etc) remains functional for as long as possible. But, with time and experience, I am learning to make myself a priority, it's not selfish at all. It gives you confidence. It gives you an ability to let go off the situation or the people who are in any way trying to disturb the calm inside you. It makes you attain that level of peace that any external factor is unable to disturb it.
Not that I have attained the art of mastering this practice of self love, but I have definitely realised that this is one of those things which helps you with attaining the peace from inside out. I am still looking out for other ones.
